Sunday, December 27, 2009

Show me light...

Dont u dare regard me, for what I dont deserve
I claimed to be intact with my values
when the fact is, I'm manipulative
I retain those which satisfy my conscious
while, those which I struggle to bear with,
I just manipulate them accordingly
Not all seasons are same, so is with different colors
dat what makes one value viable and others relatively nugatory
Though expected to be unmarred
bt still I declined to hold each one of dem indivisually
Stipulated to which I just want people around me to stop defending me
to stop giving me false hopes, stop overlooking my mistakes
n just stop giving me chances-
the ones I'm not worth of...
If u will not guide me,
abyss of this obscurity will mark my identity
I dont want to be an ideal nor do I want to potray perfectionism
coz I know n I accept I'm deviated but dont wish to hold deviation...

Saturday, December 19, 2009

An attempt...

For once you did not even try to mend the circumstances
when there still existed chances
still unknown of the fact, for what reasons I decieved
well, I'm not bothered about what you conceived
my justification weaks my stand,

and anyday I dont wish to loose a hand
I kept on longing for you...
when you were everywhere
n I strived for that warmth which was not there
Infact I was very well dere...

but your eyes failed to perceive me...
I thought I could make up this time,
but you overlooked all my attempts..
you can see my mistakes, you can hold those grudges against me
but you cant deny my love for you...its true, pure n serene
its not lame to be defended by you..
although it requires sustainence by you..
without you, it holds no meaning and with you its everything..

Thats true...

Brought up in an impregnable n intact environ, endowed with all living felicities n cultured to a mature, judicious n prudent personality..this is how we have grown up...

With every uttered call or wish, soon realized true...with all happiness, recognition and attension bestowed...
For, unconditional love they showered n all sacrifices they made...
with selfless aim they cherished each our day...

All mistakes forgiven n all indiscipline overlooked...
as they wished to hold us along...

For they made us wht we are today,
we attempt to offset this taking it as encumber-the one deed priceless, invaluable n incomparable...

Failed to comprehend there terms of bonding n least to bother of there expectations from us...
that is where we lag, that what leads them to loose there worth for what they deserve...

Alas we still ineffectual to understand what stood as friction between us, when it was our own ill odd mindset...

U were not dis way...

I have known you before, you were not the way you are now...
coz things not turning to your favor and evrything going against by your wish,
that does'nt mean you gonna change...

You have seen the worst of times and experiencd the most torment states,
but I alwayz witnessed you as a gallant gladiator...

You were never afraid of future or bothered about life nor were you flustered over decisions,
but now all of a sudden you allow these fears to bound you...

Just coz your conscientious efforts not yet recognized and sacrifices still not rewarded,
its not that you lag or have lost the battle...
its just a phase to outshine your strong determination,
will and intensions...

You still are charged with enormous potential within you..
and still purity n serenity marks your wisdom
you have lost nothing but learnt to survive...

You can either restrain and desist these apprehensions,
or swayed you lie down on knees to face the consequences...
its at your discretion to make a choice and so is your call to defend yourself...