Monday, September 21, 2009

Apprehensions...

Luking at the things around u, sometimes u gravitate upon something coz that thing in some sense correlate u, your life...Dis girl...her eyes so pretty n expressive...so much dey say..but its mere perception, what one senses lukin at them...it feels as if certainly she has enormous pain behind these laden eyes...as if she wishes to elicit her emotions, but is repressing dem...as if she wishes to adduce that no matter what-U wont understand, coz I n only I can feel dat...as if she's undergoin a turmoil of emotions...her eyes starin badly n self introspecting...n her soul weeping for her failure...
Her firmly closed fist potrays that she's yearning for essesnce but has incessant boundations n restrictions...as if she's aggrieved n oppressed...
as if she has boundless fears n all of them haunting her...as if her eyes pleading for independence..to taste the fruits of freedom..as if her desire to enter a whole new world where she'll be rewarded n her actions recognized...her eyes still searchn eternally for dis hope..n is living on it...!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Faith...


It’s strange that u start sharing your every teeny-weeny details with someone whom you have just started knowing...but it happens just coz you trust that person n have faith in him....though its only a word...but means a lot..!!!
It's actually something that makes you feel that you are not alone...and no matter what you are in safe hands...
Faith is the tool you impart another person who has the full vigor n opportunity to ruin you…to play with you...but still you are confident enough that he'll not...
It’s something that cannot be forcibly connoted or accepted...it’s a feeling that comes spontaneously...It’s not an obligation or a compulsion but an instinct or a sentiment, that someone confides in you....shares with you....n makes u feel important, exigent & exceptional...

Though d most onerous decision of life is to trust someone...n I believe that still it’s easier to trust but very difficult to hold it...it asks for your sincerity, honesty n veracity...
N to sum up, its faith only that makes you believe that there exists life in sculptures too…n you regard them as God...n if it exists…it works tooo...:)

Imperfection...

I'm a reticent believer of harmony, so I love silence but words haunts me...
I want to fly but freedom haunts me...
I try to be passive but every so often I'm impulsive...
I try to selflessly devote myself to oders but at times I'm selfish...
I try to listen to everybody around me but now and again I overhear certain things...
I try to keep everyone around me happy but once in a while unintensionally I do hurt dem...
I try to be complacent but at times I'm stubborn n furious...
I try to help others as much as I can but sometimes I fail thinking of my gud in it...
I try to be silent n keep things to myself but seldom I just blurt out as I lack perseverance...
I try to keep things in order but often I spill more than I order...
I try to complete my tasks on time but off and on I lag behind coz of my otioseness...
I try n avoid conflicts but once in a while unknowingly I become a part of it...
I try to be the real way I'm but many a times I fake out, n my actions mere guise n delusive...
I try to be as gud to oders as others are to me...n in an attempt I realize that I need to spend one more lifetime to reach upto there levels...n my worth is still not comparable to dem n lots more need to be conceived...
I try to comply with all expectations of my dear ones from me but often I'm deviated as priorities crops in...
n lastly I veraciously accept that I try to remember n thank God everyday but many a times I do forget Him too....
& dats in all dat - I'm not a perfect girl...:)