Sunday, October 23, 2011




Life is not easy a game,
you crave for love, care and fame...
It’s nothing but running a rat race
struggling in crowd to identify your face...
Every instant proving your potential
time passes in framing your credentials...
Unknown of the multiple phase transitions, you undergo
life plays a clever game without letting you know...
All you end up is a transformational identity
either for good or worse, time shall spell...
As you realize, you have already lost those moments
in plight of running and winning the game...
But, in this game you’d missed the essence of life: 
You live once, you love once and this life comes once...
Then, what are you running for?
What are you trying to win over?
Race is not what you want to win, battle is within you, with your aspirations...
Listen to your heart, value your charm
Give it new doors, then see all wishes shall be yours....

Saturday, August 20, 2011




At times you wonder, why I'm so distressed
I believe no point disclosing feelings that are already suppressed...
My mood swings annoy you that are often unstable
but, I'm not a limelight moth, attention makes me feel uncomfortable...
To you it seems I'm happy alone
again, its not my choice but the way I've grown...
You think, I mean when I say- just don't interfere
its not, in fact it affirms that I very much wish you to but can't share...
You believe I'm too feeble to take my stand
I say, I could if ever I had a magic wand...
You hold strong that I can never change
I assure, I will but in a right time range...
Yes you say, all will be fine..trust me..just let it go...
but, again what I feel may not be necessarily what I show...
n 'what I show' is something you knowingly also don't know...

Sunday, August 14, 2011



I’m not perfect, I agree…
But whenever I try to approach perfection,
I land up giving imperfect me…
I try not to delve deep into things
but you tell me,
what can I do if my thoughts have wings?
I try to cheer and also I try to smile
though, unknowingly it lasts only for a while...
My efforts not to be sensitive at all
but each time I try, I fall...
I try not to shed a single tear
maybe it’s not me but my fear...
I try my best to not to hurt you
but, all I end up is fighting hue...
I know I’m not suppose to cross that line-
a line that defines and confines
but, you need to understand 
that it is my conscious not being mine...
I earnestly wish to be what you want me to be
But
 I fail as I’m what ‘they’ want me to be…..
I’m not perfect, I agree…
But whenever I try to approach perfection,
I land up giving imperfect me…

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Days...



Pondering over past days
recollecting few old memories...
that peculiar smell of wet grass...
that unique sand pattern on ground..
all is the same...
I still remember those swings...
the games we use to play...
searching for ball or shuttle...
across every corner, under every bench
upset on winds that use to blow
changing the course of play...
angry, furious and dismayed
somehow calmed by chocolates on the way...
those fights over first den in the game
without caring for anyone, without any shame...
endless debates on selection of team
easy game with known ones it seems...
choosy in every action, be it be
badminton of silvers, yonex or carlton
skates of yonkers or wrist bands of adidas
choice of fine marbles for stapoos
or sport shoes for chain-chain...
life was so simple...options in abundance
demands fulfilled every once
no hardships, no targets...n no "expectations"
but changed are the times
grown are we...n far behind left are those days.....

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Up in the sky, I see the bright stars
I want a one for me but not so far
enlivening me, rejuvenating my desires
over which my life retires
imparting my life its subsistence, that's worth an existence
Star that lasts forever, leaving me never..!
whether it's a day or night, it always shine
Embracing loyalty, assuring lifelong submission...
but somewhere deep inside, I fear
by your ecsape behind the sun or clouds
or ignorance under the lame shadow
coz I'm tired of walking alone...
I know I will be safe
in cocoon of your heart
so wide open your doors
make me yours
coz I just can't cure all my gore's...

Friday, January 21, 2011

Moon & You...


I gaze at moon
with a hope to see you soon...
Your charisma all around
with prominence so sound
that makes me feel spellbound
Your glance so pure
as I see, the more I allure
Your brightness under the dark sky
just turns me shy
Waiting for you at nights
searching you at heights
caress of your bright light on my sight
makes me feel as you hug me tight
From childhood stories
till date, I relate
n give you all my worries....
I know your game of hide n seek,
just a way to make me weak
know you are hiding behind cloud
somewhere in sky crowd
Stop this play and before the dawning of the day
take me away
Alhough our night was made for loving
but the day returns too soon
I am where I was,
 waiting by the light of the moon...

Monday, January 17, 2011

Essence...



The wind blowing swiftly over me
that touch with a gentle feel
the soft whispers of leaves
A suspended moment of perfect bliss
the silver splash of the snow
reflection of your image as it show
I again feel this wet snow
on my warm, soft skin.
Maybe it's this touch,
Or the way you make me feel
But whatever it is,
I'm head over heels.
the wind chime sings your tune
affirms a cadence note
whose every drift pushes me close to you
Icy hands, Icy toes
as I go, all I see is snow
all the chill I feel, the white mountains I see
the more you last in me
still I can feel this snow
nor will I let you go...
want to hug n embrace you in me
to share the warmth of you
And each time it snows
a footstep you make or maybe two
a door slide open
I would just reach out for you...

You...



A hug and a smile
patience for a while
Respect and concern reserve
only if you feel I deserve
A soft tone
A love shown
Possesive about me or rather "WE"
evidently as I can see
Looking into my eyes
as brilliant light in dark skies
understands me, my worries

acknowledges my gestures
shares my desires
only my well being that he aspires
Lets his life for a drop of tear
the ones he can never ever bear
Awake to see me sleep all the way
till I slumbered the night away
Wishes happiness as my share
nurturing me with his care
Witnessing my immature stance,
never will he spare a chance
to grin at my naive glance
Hears my mind before it say
whether its night or day
His heart tuned with mine
that's how all goes fine
A smile in his style
makes me numb for a while
with stupid nicknames as he call
just makes me fall
I long, I admire, I yearn n I envy
All I ask me is,
How can YOU be so lovely...?

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Castle in air...

The winds blow gently on my mind
Reminding me of you;
I smile.....I close my eyes
Knowing dreams do come true...
Now that we are far apart
I miss you from core of my heart...
Your existence had a meaning
evidently reflected in my life
your words still in prominence
serving as a reminiscence
of the days we were together
but now, gone are the days
and left are the memories,
memories I ponder over
that smile I crave for
that concern I long for
that intimacy I strive for
that warmth I yearn for
Often I wish for golden strands,
and dream of you once more,
praying n clasping desperate hands,
Wait! I hear a knocking at the door.....

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Life is changing...


Life's changing for us my dear...
we now are laden with more responsibilities
we now have a different set of priorities..
I don't doubt to be forgotten or ignored even at once...
but yeah...its no longer going to be what it used to be...


Life's changing for us my dear...
you still will find me everywhere,
but maybe not on time
it's all still the same, the same feelings, the same concern
but things around us have changed...


Life's changing for us my dear...
we use to talk, we use to meet and we use to have fun endlessly
but now we have our respective schedules
we still talk, we still meet and we still have fun endlessly
but maybe not on time


Life's changing for us my dear...
a new journey
some set goals, some new experiences
to establish ourselves, to stand on our own
to just touch the sky, to be successful...


Life's changing for us my dear,
but one for last that can never be changed
is our everlasting bond...
our relationship-so strong, so pure and so intimate...


Time still can't figure out any changes...
we still use our rights, we still fight
we still care, we still respect
for us it still matters to be with each other
"we" still are "we" and not you & me
and it is simple and clear...
Life's definitely not changing for us my dear...!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Everything...



Hardly could have I said something…
everything seemed running so obvious
when d fact was it was all different...
I could notice, rather could feel too
but still remained silent,
for what good reason even I don’t know myself...
Maybe this time my choice to let it happen
or my running away from immuration...
It was not at all like before,
I could perceive things being changed
not only for myself
but for others around me as well...
Certainly it felt good, rather it still does
but then I fear, I fear to sustain it...
I know what it matters to have it n to lose it
realization of which just kills me the most,
For which I stand helpless
helpless to defend my conscious...
I still wished to part the prevailing proximities
but inside I crave to hold them the very same way they are...
This brings in light the battle inside me 
is it my choice or servitude to my values...?
The debate still goes on...the deviation still inherent...

Friday, July 16, 2010

I...

I wish on your wishes, I dream on your dreams
with words so clear, nothing left to fear
Feelings so intense, holding deep essence
the closeness u share, the faith u shell out
Just turns me quiescent with no doubt
I admire, I yearn n I long for you
I just dont call for your sole concern on me
Neither I'm selfish nor I'm blind
I know I owe you but in my own sense, indeed I love to share you,
with others who have an equal right on you
for they deserve more of you as they were part of you much before I claimed my right on you
And I will never be able to bridge this gap
for they stay as valuable as they were...
I assure I still will understand you the very same way I used to
I might be late, but trust me won't eva let u wait
I do care for your concern
as it completes me, nurtures me
no matter what you want, what you ask for
your words holds dominion, your say matters
not as obligation, nor as responsibility
but as choice, as my own wish
Just forgive my mistakes as mere novice,
my ears alwayz open for your advice
I'll learn from my mistakes, grows from my errors
in different life's seasons n colors
 I assure to live up to your every single expectation,
sustaining our relation's divination n incantation...

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

U have taught me smiling
under the worst of conditions
U made me understand meaning of life
when I ceased every hope to live...
When I had no one around to understand me
u were there, infact u were only there...
U assured that nothing can go wrong
and actually nothing did.....
I was bounded by pessimism all around
when u enlightened a clear ground...
I had enormous fears
haunting each one of dem every day
but u just fade them away...
U could feel my sorrow laden eyes
so u uplifted me through ur incessant tries
Simply with ur very dedicated n genuine intensions
ur will n wish to alleviate someone
I am actually where I'm today
Now when I ponder back on old days
I fear of arriving again the same state as before
though with each passing day my trust grew deeper
n I started trusting u more than myself
I'm assured that u will always be there,
coz for once I can doubt myself for lagging behind
considering all my efforts confined
But undoubtedly claims ur unconditional concern
that demands nothing in return....

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Miss those days...


Today standing still in search of glory,
recollecting those old memories.
Thinking of those days of togetherness,
I'm filled with thrill and happiness.
Those long hours of gossips,
every moment together was a bliss.
Late night chats, munching pizza's n fats
watching movies, licking candies
bunking lectures, escaping by pity gestures
grabbing last benches, discussing our crushes
uncontrollable pounding over pj's
those stupid games we use to play
that would simply pass the day
thinking of which now just turns me gray...
Life led with zeal, embracing the bond we shared,
those giggling and laughter sessions which we had.
Caring and sharing in abundance,
today wish to have one glance.
but, time has changed for us...
now we share different priorities,
laden with few set of responsibilities
dispersed over different parts
still much closer in hearts
Moving into the flashback,
thinking of those moments, I'm taken aback
Wish,the time could be rewinded,
as those days are always reminded.
I'm speechless,left with no words,
just thoughts and thoughts.
mesmerizing moments countless,
miss them all being helpless...


Monday, June 21, 2010

Something...

There is some extreme sense of belonging,
some intimate n eternal bond...
Dont know why do I feel so or what makes me feel so...
why do I blurt out everything
why are there no resraints, no boundations or why do I ignore them if they are...
Dont know what droves immense satisfaction n complacency
or what makes my soul contented
Some strange dynamism, some strange vigor...
that makes everything genial..
Something that fades away troubles as they grow, that fills the hollowness...
Something that drives u to be still better n better
Something assuring lifelong salvation...
Abiding unconditionally by every precept of vow be it be day or night
neglecting priorities or rather escaping daily grind
just to hold and sustain concern...
This what defines something,
I truly respect, admire n envy this being...:)

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

She is...

    
She's a daughter, a sister, a grand-daughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend, a student, a young girl, and a grown woman...a simple girl yet unusual from others...she's pretty but most of the times she's tousled and rustic as she believes her beauty is not for all but for few.
she holds that she should not look beautiful everyday coz then special days are no indifferent from normal days...(crazy thought...yeah!)
she is intact with her prayers, trust her faith n holds rational credences to same.
she has an unostentatious elegance and possesses a congenital and innate idiosyncrasy
she embraces and honor her uniqueness
Her facile tone, her conciliatory gesture exhibiting natural accendancy over others to make u accept the very same way she wants u too, a bit manupilative to make situation worth living, to convince the audience and to sustain harmony and peace.
some strange dynamism, some strange vigor....imbued with revolutionary ardor
Tangled streaks of hair...deep hazel eyes indicating the antiquity of the soul and amulets of wisdom...
she is eleganant to her finger tips, an altogether distinct fragrance..
she respects and values her conventionalism in vogue manner, she feels smug and complacent for being naturally consecrated with ethics, virtues, integrity and righteousness...she is adored, she is appreciated and she is idolized
she's the one who cry her tears all alone in dark silence...who is very sensitive, very delicate n gets hurt easily...any thing beyond her natural stance has capabilities to break her into tears..
she is broken, she's shattered n she's tired...tired of struggles, tired of compromises, tired of attempts...
she fear her fears and dream her dreams
she enjoy refrainment or rather bounds herself as she believes confining impediments wandering, prohibits entry to doors that are difficult to escape from...she may deprive herself of pleasures or aspirations just to hold her conscientiousness...
she holds that compromising or loosing her share to others will fill her part more than she has for herself in store...(very strange though...!)
her interest towards her pleasures strikes me as more of a velleity than a firm desire or aspiration...
Least bothered of her comfort n abstemiousness in regard to gratification of desires...
she'll try her best to come upto evryone's expectations, to fulfill all what her responsibilities are, to actually abide by every norm, every percept of day and night.
she fears of being loved..she fears of being felt concerned for..coz she thinks she dont deserve..
she smiles on outside, whilst she may be dying inside...or probably lying on every side...
she maintains and sustains a balance in between her wishes and actions...she calculates n accordingly react...well, she's a perfect blend of traits...from a kid to a mature woman, a funny n humorous person to a serious n responsible one...a usual yet unusual identity
she's everything and she's nothing all at once...

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

:)


I was never so weak that I could unveil evrythng that I felt
But time made me its slave...
I always avoided to acknowledge my feelings
coz I feared of being misleaded by them
but now I ask myself for the same
Something made me blurt out what all I wished could remain inside me
Something asked me to disclose everythng...
and to my surprise I followed that voice
someone trusts blindly n confides in that thing more than herself...
Something assuring that sharing will make it better anyday
but I wonder for d fact that changed my irrevocable mindset
have I lost that resistance to be rigid n firm
or have I learnt to share
its nevertheless a strange percept
which I'm still ineffectual to accept...

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Wish for her wishes




She wish for her wishes

she counts on her stars

she trust her instincts

she value her values

elegance in her solemnity

charm in her dignity

as innocent n novice as a cub

euphonious voice, concinnity in tone

charming gesture, appealing rectitude

gleaming eyes showcasing wisdom of thoughts

facing hardships, bearing loads

struggling every percept of wow

still content to every extent

coz she entrusts her prayers

holds her faith

foresee brightness in dim

as she confides in Him