Life is not easy a game,

you crave for love, care and fame...

It’s nothing but running a rat race

struggling in crowd to identify your face...

Every instant proving your potential

time passes in framing your credentials...

Unknown of the multiple phase transitions, you undergo

life plays a clever game without letting you know...

All you end up is a transformational identity

either for good or worse, time shall spell...

As you realize, you have already lost those moments

in plight of running and winning the game...

But, in this game you’d missed the essence of life: 

You live once, you love once and this life comes once...

Then, what are you running for?

What are you trying to win over?

Race is not what you want to win, battle is within you, with your aspirations...

Listen to your heart, value your charm

Give it new doors, then see all wishes shall be yours....

At times you wonder, why I'm so distressed

I believe no point disclosing feelings that are already suppressed...

My mood swings annoy you that are often unstable

but, I'm not a limelight moth, attention makes me feel uncomfortable...

To you it seems I'm happy alone

again, its not my choice but the way I've grown...

You think, I mean when I say- just don't interfere

its not, in fact it affirms that I very much wish you to but can't share...

You believe I'm too feeble to take my stand

I say, I could if ever I had a magic wand...

You hold strong that I can never change

I assure, I will but in a right time range...

Yes you say, all will be fine..trust me..just let it go...

but, again what I feel may not be necessarily what I show...

n 'what I show' is something you knowingly also don't know...

I’m not perfect, I agree…
But whenever I try to approach perfection,

I land up giving imperfect me…

I try not to delve deep into things

but you tell me,

what can I do if my thoughts have wings?

I try to cheer and also I try to smile

though, unknowingly it lasts only for a while...

My efforts not to be sensitive at all

but each time I try, I fall...
I try not to shed a single tear
maybe it’s not me but my fear...

I try my best to not to hurt you

but, all I end up is fighting hue...

I know I’m not suppose to cross that line-
a line that defines and confines

but, you need to understand 
that it is my conscious not being mine...

I earnestly wish to be what you want me to be

But

 I fail as I’m what ‘they’ want me to be…..

I’m not perfect, I agree…

But whenever I try to approach perfection,

I land up giving imperfect me…

Days...

Pondering over past days

recollecting few old memories...

that peculiar smell of wet grass...

that unique sand pattern on ground..

all is the same...

I still remember those swings...

the games we use to play...

searching for ball or shuttle...

across every corner, under every bench

upset on winds that use to blow

changing the course of play...

angry, furious and dismayed

somehow calmed by chocolates on the way...

those fights over first den in the game

without caring for anyone, without any shame...

endless debates on selection of team

easy game with known ones it seems...

choosy in every action, be it be

badminton of silvers, yonex or carlton

skates of yonkers or wrist bands of adidas

choice of fine marbles for stapoos

or sport shoes for chain-chain...

life was so simple...options in abundance

demands fulfilled every once

no hardships, no targets...n no "expectations"

but changed are the times

grown are we...n far behind left are those days.....

Up in the sky, I see the bright stars

I want a one for me but not so far

enlivening me, rejuvenating my desires

over which my life retires

imparting my life its subsistence, that's worth an existence

Star that lasts forever, leaving me never..!

whether it's a day or night, it always shine

Embracing loyalty, assuring lifelong submission...

but somewhere deep inside, I fear

by your ecsape behind the sun or clouds

or ignorance under the lame shadow

coz I'm tired of walking alone...

I know I will be safe

in cocoon of your heart

so wide open your doors

make me yours

coz I just can't cure all my gore's...

Moon & You...

I gaze at moon

with a hope to see you soon...

Your charisma all around

with prominence so sound

that makes me feel spellbound

Your glance so pure

as I see, the more I allure

Your brightness under the dark sky

just turns me shy

Waiting for you at nights

searching you at heights

caress of your bright light on my sight

makes me feel as you hug me tight

From childhood stories

till date, I relate

n give you all my worries....

I know your game of hide n seek,

just a way to make me weak

know you are hiding behind cloud

somewhere in sky crowd

Stop this play and before the dawning of the day
take me away

Alhough our night was made for loving
but the day returns too soon
I am where I was,
 waiting by the light of the moon...

Essence...

The wind blowing swiftly over me

that touch with a gentle feel

the soft whispers of leaves

A suspended moment of perfect bliss

the silver splash of the snow

reflection of your image as it show

I again feel this wet snow
on my warm, soft skin.

Maybe it's this touch,

Or the way you make me feel

But whatever it is,

I'm head over heels.

the wind chime sings your tune

affirms a cadence note

whose every drift pushes me close to you

Icy hands, Icy toes

as I go, all I see is snow

all the chill I feel, the white mountains I see

the more you last in me

still I can feel this snow

nor will I let you go...

want to hug n embrace you in me

to share the warmth of you

And each time it snows
a footstep you make or maybe two
a door slide open
I would just reach out for you...

You...

A hug and a smile

patience for a while

Respect and concern reserve

only if you feel I deserve

A soft tone

A love shown

Possesive about me or rather "WE"

evidently as I can see

Looking into my eyes

as brilliant light in dark skies
understands me, my worries
acknowledges my gestures
shares my desires
only my well being that he aspires

Lets his life for a drop of tear

the ones he can never ever bear

Awake to see me sleep all the way

till I slumbered the night away

Wishes happiness as my share

nurturing me with his care

Witnessing my immature stance,

never will he spare a chance

to grin at my naive glance

Hears my mind before it say

whether its night or day

His heart tuned with mine

that's how all goes fine

A smile in his style

makes me numb for a while

with stupid nicknames as he call

just makes me fall

I long, I admire, I yearn n I envy

All I ask me is,

How can YOU be so lovely...?