Castle in air...

The winds blow gently on my mind
Reminding me of you;
I smile.....I close my eyes
Knowing dreams do come true...

Now that we are far apart

I miss you from core of my heart...

Your existence had a meaning

evidently reflected in my life

your words still in prominence

serving as a reminiscence

of the days we were together

but now, gone are the days

and left are the memories,

memories I ponder over

that smile I crave for

that concern I long for

that intimacy I strive for

that warmth I yearn for

Often I wish for golden strands,
and dream of you once more,
praying n clasping desperate hands,
Wait! I hear a knocking at the door.....

Life is changing...

Life's changing for us my dear...

we now are laden with more responsibilities

we now have a different set of priorities..

I don't doubt to be forgotten or ignored even at once...

but yeah...its no longer going to be what it used to be...

Life's changing for us my dear...

you still will find me everywhere,

but maybe not on time

it's all still the same, the same feelings, the same concern

but things around us have changed...

Life's changing for us my dear...

we use to talk, we use to meet and we use to have fun endlessly

but now we have our respective schedules

we still talk, we still meet and we still have fun endlessly

but maybe not on time

Life's changing for us my dear...

a new journey

some set goals, some new experiences

to establish ourselves, to stand on our own

to just touch the sky, to be successful...

Life's changing for us my dear,

but one for last that can never be changed

is our everlasting bond...

our relationship-so strong, so pure and so intimate...

Time still can't figure out any changes...

we still use our rights, we still fight

we still care, we still respect

for us it still matters to be with each other

"we" still are "we" and not you & me

and it is simple and clear...

Life's definitely not changing for us my dear...!

Everything...

Hardly could have I said something…
everything seemed running so obvious
when d fact was it was all different...
I could notice, rather could feel too
but still remained silent,
for what good reason even I don’t know myself...
Maybe this time my choice to let it happen

or my running away from immuration...
It was not at all like before,
I could perceive things being changed
not only for myself
but for others around me as well...
Certainly it felt good, rather it still does
but then I fear, I fear to sustain it...
I know what it matters to have it n to lose it
realization of which just kills me the most,
For which I stand helpless

helpless to defend my conscious...
I still wished to part the prevailing proximities
but inside I crave to hold them the very same way they are...
This brings in light the battle inside me 

is it my choice or servitude to my values...?

The debate still goes on...the deviation still inherent...

I...

I wish on your wishes, I dream on your dreams

with words so clear, nothing left to fear

Feelings so intense, holding deep essence

the closeness u share, the faith u shell out

Just turns me quiescent with no doubt

I admire, I yearn n I long for you

I just dont call for your sole concern on me

Neither I'm selfish nor I'm blind

I know I owe you but in my own sense, indeed I love to share you,

with others who have an equal right on you

for they deserve more of you as they were part of you much before I claimed my right on you

And I will never be able to bridge this gap

for they stay as valuable as they were...

I assure I still will understand you the very same way I used to

I might be late, but trust me won't eva let u wait

I do care for your concern

as it completes me, nurtures me

no matter what you want, what you ask for

your words holds dominion, your say matters

not as obligation, nor as responsibility

but as choice, as my own wish

Just forgive my mistakes as mere novice,

my ears alwayz open for your advice

I'll learn from my mistakes, grows from my errors

in different life's seasons n colors

 I assure to live up to your every single expectation,

sustaining our relation's divination n incantation...

U have taught me smiling

under the worst of conditions

U made me understand meaning of life

when I ceased every hope to live...

When I had no one around to understand me

u were there, infact u were only there...

U assured that nothing can go wrong

and actually nothing did.....

I was bounded by pessimism all around

when u enlightened a clear ground...

I had enormous fears

haunting each one of dem every day

but u just fade them away...

U could feel my sorrow laden eyes

so u uplifted me through ur incessant tries

Simply with ur very dedicated n genuine intensions

ur will n wish to alleviate someone

I am actually where I'm today

Now when I ponder back on old days

I fear of arriving again the same state as before

though with each passing day my trust grew deeper

n I started trusting u more than myself

I'm assured that u will always be there,

coz for once I can doubt myself for lagging behind

considering all my efforts confined

But undoubtedly claims ur unconditional concern

that demands nothing in return....

Miss those days...

Today standing still in search of glory,

recollecting those old memories.

Thinking of those days of togetherness,

I'm filled with thrill and happiness.

Those long hours of gossips,

every moment together was a bliss.

Late night chats, munching pizza's n fats

watching movies, licking candies

bunking lectures, escaping by pity gestures

grabbing last benches, discussing our crushes

uncontrollable pounding over pj's

those stupid games we use to play

that would simply pass the day

thinking of which now just turns me gray...

Life led with zeal, embracing the bond we shared,

those giggling and laughter sessions which we had.

Caring and sharing in abundance,

today wish to have one glance.

but, time has changed for us...

now we share different priorities,

laden with few set of responsibilities

dispersed over different parts

still much closer in hearts
Moving into the flashback,

thinking of those moments, I'm taken aback

Wish,the time could be rewinded,

as those days are always reminded.

I'm speechless,left with no words,

just thoughts and thoughts.

mesmerizing moments countless,

miss them all being helpless...

Something...

There is some extreme sense of belonging,

some intimate n eternal bond...

Dont know why do I feel so or what makes me feel so...

why do I blurt out everything

why are there no resraints, no boundations or why do I ignore them if they are...

Dont know what droves immense satisfaction n complacency

or what makes my soul contented

Some strange dynamism, some strange vigor...

that makes everything genial..

Something that fades away troubles as they grow, that fills the hollowness...

Something that drives u to be still better n better

Something assuring lifelong salvation...

Abiding unconditionally by every precept of vow be it be day or night

neglecting priorities or rather escaping daily grind

just to hold and sustain concern...

This what defines something,
I truly respect, admire n envy this being...:)

She is...

    

She's a daughter, a sister, a grand-daughter, a niece, a cousin, a friend, a student, a young girl, and a grown woman...a simple girl yet unusual from others...she's pretty but most of the times she's tousled and rustic as she believes her beauty is not for all but for few.

she holds that she should not look beautiful everyday coz then special days are no indifferent from normal days...(crazy thought...yeah!)

she is intact with her prayers, trust her faith n holds rational credences to same.

she has an unostentatious elegance and possesses a congenital and innate idiosyncrasy

she embraces and honor her uniqueness

Her facile tone, her conciliatory gesture exhibiting natural accendancy over others to make u accept the very same way she wants u too, a bit manupilative to make situation worth living, to convince the audience and to sustain harmony and peace.

some strange dynamism, some strange vigor....imbued with revolutionary ardor

Tangled streaks of hair...deep hazel eyes indicating the antiquity of the soul and amulets of wisdom...

she is eleganant to her finger tips, an altogether distinct fragrance..

she respects and values her conventionalism in vogue manner, she feels smug and complacent for being naturally consecrated with ethics, virtues, integrity and righteousness...she is adored, she is appreciated and she is idolized

she's the one who cry her tears all alone in dark silence...who is very sensitive, very delicate n gets hurt easily...any thing beyond her natural stance has capabilities to break her into tears..

she is broken, she's shattered n she's tired...tired of struggles, tired of compromises, tired of attempts...

she fear her fears and dream her dreams

she enjoy refrainment or rather bounds herself as she believes confining impediments wandering, prohibits entry to doors that are difficult to escape from...she may deprive herself of pleasures or aspirations just to hold her conscientiousness...

she holds that compromising or loosing her share to others will fill her part more than she has for herself in store...(very strange though...!)

her interest towards her pleasures strikes me as more of a velleity than a firm desire or aspiration...

Least bothered of her comfort n abstemiousness in regard to gratification of desires...

she'll try her best to come upto evryone's expectations, to fulfill all what her responsibilities are, to actually abide by every norm, every percept of day and night.

she fears of being loved..she fears of being felt concerned for..coz she thinks she dont deserve..

she smiles on outside, whilst she may be dying inside...or probably lying on every side...

she maintains and sustains a balance in between her wishes and actions...she calculates n accordingly react...well, she's a perfect blend of traits...from a kid to a mature woman, a funny n humorous person to a serious n responsible one...a usual yet unusual identity

she's everything and she's nothing all at once...

:)

I was never so weak that I could unveil evrythng that I felt

But time made me its slave...

I always avoided to acknowledge my feelings

coz I feared of being misleaded by them

but now I ask myself for the same

Something made me blurt out what all I wished could remain inside me

Something asked me to disclose everythng...

and to my surprise I followed that voice

someone trusts blindly n confides in that thing more than herself...

Something assuring that sharing will make it better anyday

but I wonder for d fact that changed my irrevocable mindset

have I lost that resistance to be rigid n firm

or have I learnt to share

its nevertheless a strange percept

which I'm still ineffectual to accept...

Wish for her wishes

She wish for her wishes

she counts on her stars

she trust her instincts

she value her values

elegance in her solemnity

charm in her dignity

as innocent n novice as a cub

euphonious voice, concinnity in tone

charming gesture, appealing rectitude

gleaming eyes showcasing wisdom of thoughts

facing hardships, bearing loads

struggling every percept of wow

still content to every extent

coz she entrusts her prayers

holds her faith

foresee brightness in dim

as she confides in Him

Amidst the journey

Amidst the journey, I may have stumbled;

in view of directions, I may have wandered...

When I had many ways, I might have chosen a wrong one

but I tried to retain a focussed will to reach my destination...

I dont claim to walk smooth paths, nor to bear an easy load

I yearn for strength and fortitude to climb the rock strewn road..

This new way nurtured my perspicacity and sagacity;

enlightened my wisdom through core...

It was a voyage, all through my experiences

I cherished, I grieved and I relished...

I faced different winds, n I felt different sun;

I grasped power and I endured courage...

Now, all fears lost...all apprehensions succumbed...

I can scale the hardest peaks alone;

And thus have learnt the skill to transform every stumbling block into stepping stone....

parts of me...

U had parts of me in you…

They are not lost, rather u have constrained their escalation

I know this one is solely for sake of me, for my happiness...

But u fail to realize that sharing is any day better than abstinence

Escaping is easier initially, but annihilates the most in vulnerable plight...

U evinced that their prevailed no such genuine bonding

U evinced that it was all lust that dominated over trust

U evinced that parts of me in you are no longer usual or existent n even if they are, they are worthless…

Also, not to misconceive as my choice to start up or end up all again, I’m concerned genuinely n solely with happiness-a mutual one…

Coming on to me, I still claim to hold parts of you...

Although they may be passive but unlike you, I have not let them oust...they still very well intact with me...

It's not my call or wish to hold or drop anything;

it’s just happiness that concerns me…

I only wish to share those parts of me that u might be entitled to or rather u demand...

Trust me, I don’t deny that its sustenance is demanding anyhow-

may be that was a prominent reason for escaping or avoiding the prevailing circumstances….but it too could have been made easier…It’s just a game of mere interpretation and perception…

Try to rationalize and get all good times back…life’s too short for regrets and ego…live up to its every call…

Strong will with pure intentions and zeal to sustain tends to make the sphere worth living and I admit to it…!

I promise

whenever u in pain

whenever u in vain

just call out my name

I promise, I'll be there

whenever some ups

whenever some downs

just think for the fact I care

I promise, I'll be there

whenever feeling low

whenever things not in flow

just presume my time's alwayz spare

I promise, I'll be there

whenever things not in place

whenever tired in life's race

just believe u need not be in despair

I promise, I'll be there

whenever something bothering

whenever adversities centering

just make me once aware

I promise, I'll be there

whenever u feel like crying

whenever u feel like relying

just remember some1's alwayz here

I promise, I'll be there

whenever loneliness prevailing

whenever long for sharing

just recall my frenship's share

I promise, I'll be there

God n Me...

I asked God to fade away all my ailments..
God said, I need not take them away
You carrying them along, you yourself expel them...

I asked Him, give me strength, courage n pateince...
He said Pateince dont drop from sky, but developes in troubles...you need to grow it urself...

I asked Him, give me happiness
He said I can just bless you, happiness need to be born within you..

I asked Him then give me all such things, with the aid of which I can derive pleasure from..
He said, all things give pleasure momentarily..nothing except my worship can give you solace for lifetime..

I said, fine..then give me strength to love others as much as you love me..
He smiled and said-the more you will spread my love, more than that you will find growing within you...:)

I dream my dreams...

Yearning for wings to fly high

Wish, I could touch the sky

Want to feel the breathe of cool breeze

I dream my dreams

Opening my eyes as gentle as first dew drops of winter

Living as embracing the radiance that clads the sunshine

Feeling the warmth of my values

I dream my dreams

Purity of smile to mark my wisdom

N happiness in heart to reflect my veracity

Dominated by thoughts

I dream my dreams

I’m imbued with a ray of hope

Entrapped in rejuvenation of desires,

Enkindling the lambent revival

His blessings and my day

I dream my dreams